all the little things

A few weeks ago I was planning to go to this event and I was really nervous. Well, really excited but also really nervous. It was something that was important to me, and I didn’t want to mess it up by being awkward or not cool enough or being too in my head. And I was also a little scared because I knew I wouldn’t know very many people there. Does anyone else have anxiety about social settings? Yeah, well your girl does. Usually big time. Anyway, in the weeks before I went to this event I had been praying about it, every single little detail. Praying that it would be just as special as I hoped it would be, and that I would be able to enjoy it and share my spirit with the people I would meet there, despite any anxiety I might have. I actually can’t even express to you the amount of minutiae that I prayed about for this one weekend. It was probably the first time in my life I’ve prayed about something so small. Usually I tend to think that God has bigger things to worry about, so I try to reserve my prayers for the big things. Life things: God’s plan for my future, His healing for those I know in my community who are suffering, asking Him to comfort those who have lost loved ones. You get the idea. It took me 24 years to figure out that I’ve been doing it all wrong. 

Do you know what happened at that event? All those prayers about all those little things? It turned out even better than I could have ever hoped or imagined. The few people I knew there went so far above and beyond any level of kindness and friendship I could have expected to make me feel loved and welcomed. I met so many new people that were so sweet and thoughtful. I made memories that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. God answered every one of those little prayers, beyond any measure. And it helped me to trust Him more and know Him more intimately than I ever had before. 

So, I’ve started saying more of those little prayers about those little things. Those daily fears and anxieties. Those tiny, pesky concerns about the people, places, and decisions I make every day. Each and every time God has been there, and He has shown me His faithfulness by answering those prayers. By calming my racing heart, or giving me confidence to step outside of my comfort zone. By letting me know He is right there with me in each moment, watching over me, holding my hand. By showing me in the small, sometimes forgettable moments of the everyday that He is good, and He is gracious. 

Here’s what I’ve learned: I believe that God is jealous for us. He is jealous of those tiny little things that consume our day, like squabbles with friends, and stressors at work, and the new dress you want to buy but know you should save money instead. When we are praying about the little things in life, we are sharing more of ourselves, and our day, and our heart with God. We are inviting Him into literally every facet of our lives, and I believe that is exactly what He desires from us. He wants to hear about the little things, and the big things, and all the things, because He wants to permeate our lives. He wants to be right there at the top of the list, first in our thoughts and our plans, all the time. You may not believe that with me, or you may have known it to be true for a long time and I am the one that is late coming to the party, but I hope you will find ways to invite God into your everyday life. I hope you will trust Him to guide you not just in the big things or little things, but in all things. I hope you will have courage to dive deeper in your relationship with God by making yourself more vulnerable and more honest with Him. I hope you’ll talk to Him like you would your best friend, or your mom, or your person, because that’s exactly who He is. Our best friend, our Heavenly Father, our trusted Healer and Savior who always directs us on the path He has planned. Someone who will never lead us astray and will always have time to hear about our concerns, thoughts, and anxieties, even for all the little things.

“For I am jealous for you with godly jealousy.”

2 Corinthians 11:2

all my love, 

ki 

2 thoughts on “all the little things

  1. This is beautiful Kiley and so true. Thank you for sharing. Some of us don’t learn this till later in life!!!

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